I tried.I tried a lot of things.
I tried to be positive.I tried to stay the same.I tried to be a better person.A better daughter,a better sister,a better self.It works only for a short duration and then it's gone.
My progress was stopped..and it was due to many causes.I don't know how to start really.
But somehow,I am still trying.No matter how many times I felt that I was an utter failure,useless,unhelpable and incapable of helping my family,I still couldn't forget the responsibility that I have towards my family,friends,juniors and especially towards myself.
Although there were people who saw me as a matured person,I am still a someone who's trying to find her identity.Someone who is still lost in the woods.I still do not know if all that I've sacrificed is still the right thing to let go.
I thought countless times again and again,boring the heck out of my brains thinking why am I still in the same spot?Why do I feel like I am not moving onwards?Why am I left here all alone again?
There was an answer,and it came out again and again.But I just couldn't...wouldn't believe it.How...how can I after all those times failing and failing again.I was in a dilemma for several days.
I guess I still haven't believed in myself yet.
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